feeling the nub of slight guilt because the classes i need to take online aren’t available any longer. and yet that’s a Big Load offa the ole shoulders. till the struggle beginneth again in the fall of course. resigned to the fact that i’ll probably be skooling forever — resigned enough that it’s even occasionally exciting to think about.
of the two period corean dramas on the telly currently, i’m ignoring one completely cuz, well, the people aren’t as attractive. shallow. Utterly Shallow.
am tired. mentally, physically, emotionally. so much damn work.
house is a mess. every cleaning session thus far has been interrupted. wtf.
repressed anger. when it bursts, it Bursts.
there’s a bizarre side of me that persists in helping out people who really don’t deserve my help. i’m just not the kind of person who can leave people in a lurch without suffering agonizing guilt over it days afterwards. even if they deserved to be left in a lurch. reasonable practicality doesn’t always mesh with my inflated sense of ethics. stupid.
i feel dirty. showers aren’t helping. it’s the messy state of the house i think.
pho ga for dinner.