rbsn ~ excursive

broken up insides cuz steve’s left.
its still all sorts of unsteady breathing since hearing on npr an hour ago (why are you talking about him the past tense?! ohwaitdammitno).
i guess i can call it a blessing that i heard about it on the drive home and didnt find out at work.
cuz itd be rather awkward explaining why im literally crying for a man i didnt know.

greatly amused. hows that approach for interviewing a vet. heehaw!

aw shucks now…(!)

FUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!

dammit boston, why?!!?!?!?!?!?!!!!! WHYYYYYY!!?!?!?!?!?!?

:(

um, go cards!
although, i’m also all about go tigers!!

excuse me whilst i go off and sulk now…

today was
NUCKINGFUTS.

neck cracking at every turn is aural proof that today was nucking futs.
so whats my craving to dissolve this intense strain of pressure?
i wanna go to a baseball game at dodger stadium.
THESEASONISNOWOVER.
unless someone forks over world series tix.

omg wow, WOW. that would be awesomical.
(go boston!)

trip plans for 2012 involve 1-comicon, 2-yankee stadium, 3-fenway park, and 4-wrigley field. somewhere inside of comicon, imma squeeze in petco park.

listening to dropkick murphys tessie will do these things to my brain, and i cant help it, plus im obviously not gonna make final four anyway.

this is all just a new money drain, i can see it now…

shoulder pains are now worse…accompanied by right wrist numbosity.
plus(!). today promises to be fsking busy.
and i just wanna go home and watch boondock saints two.

i miss it already…

game day tomorrow — which is altogether OMGSOEXCITING and NOOOOOOLASTHOMEGAMEOF2011.

wth am i going to do for the next ~2 months before ncaa bball starts?!!?

and when the fuck did this ever even become an issue!?!?!?!?!!!!

SO NOT IN THE MOOD.

which is funny because this morning i was all raring to go.
go where?!

nowhere.

five months ago, if someone wouldve told me that games will become my retreat from all that is evil in the world, i wouldnt have believed.
count me as wrong. oh so wrong.

also, count me out 113 bucks cuz i just bought tix for thursday nights game vs the giants. since i started off this season with a giants game, its only fitting to end it on a giants game no? hopefully, a we-kick-giants-asterisk-again(!) game too.

then, month and a half before N – C – A – A!!! YARRR!!!!!*

*pirates should get some yarr their direction since they lost so stupendously today. yieah, i give props to the losers occasionally.

everything hurts.
ive developed the habit of ignoring pain until its driven me to the point of insanity.
at which time, its become an endless whorl of OWSOFUCKINGSORE.
so sad. pretense of stamina.

so, thus, car singing becomes the tonic.
where an hour long drive home means transformering the monk into a moving stereo.
and i warble at the top of my lungs, trying oh so hard to imitate adele and failing udderly.
but it is a tonic, see, cuz when youre flying 50 down the road and no one can hear you, its easy to get lost in the notes and forget the muthereffing pain.
even the tiredness of the day gets sung away for that slice of time.

until, of course, its nearing dusk, im nearing home, and the tired sets back in till the heads ready to bang into the steering wheel.

and that, all that above, have been my days of late.

oh hai guys. its almost ncaa bball season!
almost as in a little over two months oh but whos counting!
me, dammit, i am.
open open open…

paid the dues but there aint no usual satisfaction to be had.
this on top of a day that sucked super grody nachos.

and. the bonus.
oh to feel like an old farty elephant, yieah.

this day has been such……perfection.

as if youve seriously offended hades or something.

so, yieah, id like someone to bring back vintage lace n rhinestone british knights PLEASE.

i need a coupon or a discount or something
cuz i need that bag BAD.
or nay, want it bad i suppose.
is it not the same thing?!

amazon peeps are insane.
ordered books saturday morning,
they were shipped out sunday i think,
and i have them in hand today.
take a break and sleep people!!

on the other hand, shiver me timbers i gots my mitts on the code book. omg excitement GALORE.

and now its raining huge heavy drops.

awesome.

so far today ive read, watched a movie, played in photoshop, threw over saving the world in favor of losing spectacularly, and ate ice cream.

i wanna do something completely unnecessary. like go to disneyland. for the umpteenth time.